2026-01-26

According to one metric, these are the two greatest soundtracks of all time

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I’m not going to keep in suspense. Here’s the metric:

Times in which Lady Steed and I watched a movie and immediately had to have the soundtrack. It was non-negotiable.

The first was in 2001. We were in Vegas, en route between Utah and California, pausing to visit my brother. We also caught a movie. We had to choose between Ocean’s Eleven and Amélie (can’t go wrong there!), and went with the former. We loved it. It’s such a cool movie and so well written and acted and edited, etc etc. Just a killer movie. And the music! The music’s incredible! I came up with a surefire money-making plan. Put a vending machine in theaters with cds of the now-playing movie’s soundtracks. I would have purchased it then and there, even at a premium.

Of course, now anyone can do that by pulling up their phone…and they’ll probably just stream it rather than buy it. This is an idea who’s moment peaked before I had it. The Nineties were the heyday of soundtracks and the idea would have made hand-over-fist from circa 1994 to 2000. But I think also you coulda sold plenty of copies of Help! and Blue Hawaii back in the day. Maybe they did. I don’t know. I wasn’t there.

Anyway, before we left town we went to Best Buy or something and bought the soundtrack.

Something soundracks did from this era (another example: Napoleon Dynamite [2004]) which I don’t like—even for movies I love and quote to this day like Ocean’s Eleven and Napoleon Dynamite—is intersperse the songs with quotes from the film. Sometimes they’re even over the top of each other.

Don’t do that.

The Ocean’s Eleven soundtrack got way less play from us because I don’t want to hear actors giving lines, even great lines, when I’m listening to the killer jazz riffs of David Holmes and people he likes, from Elvis to Perry to Quincy to Debussy. The music is so good. Even though they botched it, I’ve no regrets buying it. Great soundtrack. And, for 289 months, the only soundtrack in the history of Planet Earth to be so great we had to purchase it as soon as we left the theater.

There are soundtracks I like more. Romeo + Juliet is a favorite, but I knew the album years before I saw the movie (it came out while I was on my mission; Lady Steed had the album when we got married). Toys may be my all-time favorite soundtrack but, even though I loved the trailer, it was in and out of theaters way to fast to see first. Bambi might be the sountrack I’ve listened to the most times, but I saw the movie lonnnng before I bought the music. I definitely bought the soundtracks for A Goofy Movie and Garden State and Fantastic Mr. Fox because I dug the movies and their music but days or weeks or months passed before I bought the music. By the time I bought the Keeping the Faith soundtrack I couldn’t really even remember what I thought about the movie or the music.

But constrained to buy the soundtrack immediately? That finally recurred on Friday, January 23, 2025, after seeing The Testament of Ann Lee. A movie with music unlike anything else I’ve mentioned so far.

It’s a mix of old-timey hymns and noise music, but you get flavors of many other things here and there. Weirdly it reminds me of the O Brother, Where Art Thou? soundtrack (amazing, but purchased years later), but the reasons for that are hard to explain if you haven’t listened to Ann Lee tomorrow.

Ann Lee is sort of a musical. By which I mean it’s a musical but it’s unlike any musical I’ve ever seen before. Did you know it’s possible to make a musical excised of all its fantasy? I didn’t know that! But it ends up you can!

Sadly, this is not available as physical media. Happily because that meant I bought a download as soon as we got home but sadly because I don’t know, for instance, what tracks Alan Sparhawk sings on. There’s a lot of information I WANT TO KNOW about the soundtrack for The Testament of Ann Lee and it doesn’t seem to be publicly available (though this was interesting). This is very sad. Since no physical version, I guess Discogs will never know either?

(Incidentally, if this is not enough horror for you, check out the many, many AI-generated “books” titled The Testament of Ann Lee now for sale on Amazon.)

That Sunday, I listened to the soundtrack several times. It’s intense and beautiful and strange, like the movie itself. It demands that we ask questions about the place of women in our religious communities and the place for the ecstatic in our lives and the role of agency for good or nill and how beauty and ugliness combine to create meaning.

Anyway, since I wrote my review (which will go live here at the end of the month, or you can see a slightly different version on Letterboxd now), the movie has only grown in my estimation. I haven’t stopped thinking about it and now I can sing all the songs as well.

Two masterpieces.

The greatests of all time—at least according to one mertic.


2026-01-24

The first five books of 2026

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Baby, we're off to a strong start with this only-reading-books-we-own thing. Three excellent novels and some quality time with Snoopy.

Let me tell you all about it! 

001) Red Harvest by Dachielle Hammett, finished January 3

Incredible novel. It's been a while since I've read any Hammett (The Thin Man in 2019 and The Maltese Falcon in 2007)—well, I read the first story or two in The Continental Op two summers ago (and now I'm anxious to get back)—and man alive is rediscovering him each time that a blast of freezing-cold over-oxegenated air clearing out the lungs and brain of accumulated gunk. Bracing stuff.

Anyway, the Op has been sent to a presumably Montana town although the geography seems more Northern California/Oregon/Washington or Utah to me (the ops seem to travel north from San Francisco but Salt Lake and Ogden are the closest big towns so . . . I have more thoughts about where imaginary Personville might be, but I don't know that we can prove it from the text; ask someone whose read it three times), but it doesn't matter. It's a corrupt mining town and in a fit the richest man in town hires the Op to take down the corruption. Once he gets over his pique, he repents of that desire but the Op's already taken his money and dammit he's gonna earn it.

But the easiest way to earn it is to turn the combinations against each other and let them murder each other off. And so the bodies begin piling up.

This book moved up my to-read list thanks to Murderland which uses descriptions in the book to show how Personville must be Tacoma thanks to the grit and grime and, yes, murder. I'm so glad I did. It's having an immediate impact on my work in progress and, I suspect, in good ways.

One way it hasn't impacted me yet but I hope willis Hammett's acumen in ending something and getting out while the getting is good. Amazing.

If you've never read Hammett, perhaps the time has come. Read this one if you want to watch an alocholic take on an entire corrupt town, compromising his remaining morality every step and solving a batch of mini-mysteries every few chapters; read The Thin Man if you want to watch an alcoholic in an excellent marriage solve a satisfying puzzle; and read The Maltese Falcon if you want to visit classic San Francisco with another alcoholic with a knack for violence and clearsightedness. Or read another one and tell me what I'm missing out out.

three days 

002) Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro, finished January 14

I really should have read this book years ago. It's on the list of dystopian options my students choose from and it gets chosen a lot—almost every semester. I'm finally reading it because a) a student who read it this semester gave me his copy because I hadn't read it and b) the book group I recently joined is discussing it tomorrow.

First, to refine a spoiler you surely already know (assuming you know anything about this book, which seems likely; it's debatable what the most famous English-language dystopias are, but my guess is Nineteen Eighty-four, then Brave New World, then Fahrenheit 451, then The Handmaid's Tale, then Never Let Me Go, the youngest of the five  (and the last one I needed to read).


Anyway, the big spoiler I assume you already know is that our protagonist and her friends (and most of the people in the book) are raised to be donors. The book is near-past (it takes place in the Nineties but was published in 2005) but the world of Never Let Me Go split with ours around World War II. By the Fifties, medical technology had sped forward more quickly than ethical deabates and a subclass of infertile children was being raised to provide the medical needs of society. Everything from cancer on down has been solved thanks to this farm systerm and people are happy not thinking about the implications.

This is the first thing about the book I most appreciated. First, how the will-be donors just accept the way society is, knowing they'll be dead—excuse me—completed by thirty and live their lives day by day, moving from vague awareness of the facts to absolute certainty of the facts' inescapable gravitational well.

That feels like a handy metaphor for / prosecution of our lives.

(By the way, only moving deeper into spoilers from this point on.)

These kids then adults never imagine escape. They never plot it, they never consider it, it's not a possibly possibility. At one point they wistfully imagine a deferral, but that's it. They will donate until they complete and they accept that. Just as we accept spending most of our lives working for wages, hoping retirement might last long enough to finally go/do/become. But escape? No.

As an aside, as in Klara and the Sun, Ishiguro is not great at writing teen dialogue. Once his characters age into adulthood, fine, but pre-adult characters speak . . . off.

Second aside, did you notice how Dr. Morningdale (a character mentioned in passing near the end) is totally Dr. Frankenstein? They even have the same address! And that address, all all Frankenstein's addresses, is the most ironic option because, you know, mates and all.

The way Ishiguro handles character relationship and his very British way of concealing emotions reminds me a lot of Ian McEwan. I like McEwan better but then I've also read more McEwan.

Anyway, the real engine of the book isn't it's loop-back storytelling or its individual scenes, but its story of repressed love which we the readers think we see long before the characters are allowed to bring it to the foreground. But the deeply subterranean aspects of the characters' relationships provide most of the intrigue, page by page. The complications of friendships and loves between the three leads are complex and awful but real and understandable. And so much more tragic and forgivable because they all know they'll be dead soon. Aren't you tired? Don't you just want to get started with your donations? So you can finally rest?

The book ends, with debatable necessity, with a long monologue explaining more (but still very little) of the world. (Note: I appreciate Ishiguro's restraint; the world is well built but its details are always at the edge of our vision.) This scene slows things down and it's primary purpose seems to be to make stuff explicit which we and our narrator know but which the characters, have not been forced to see clearly. I grant it's filled with key information my students always report on, but I'm not certain much of it is necessary. Why and how, exactly, this came to pass is less important than knowing that, having come to pass, it is accepted. Completely and utterly accepted by perpetrator and victim alike and no one questions the status quo. This is why the characters don't know until that near-ultimate scene. Fish don't know they're wet until they've been pulled from the sea. And then they, at least, don't have to comprehend the fact.

I was hot and cool (never cold) on this book as I moved through it, but in the end I'm certain it will stick with me. Which is a way of saying it deserves its spot on that top five I listed above. I have more to think about, to ponder, to discuss. And I'm glad.

UPDATE: At the book group, I mentioned that, in my opinion, the five best known and most influential English-language dystopian novels are 1) Nineteen Eighty-four, 2) Brave New World, 3) Fahrenheit 451, 4) The Handmaid's Tale, and 5) Never Let Me Go. But no one (beside son and I) in attendance that night had even heard of the book before it had been proposed and most of them read it without learning anything and...their experiences were quite different from ours. The same day, I read an Atlantic article that said Ishiguro's Remains of the Day is better known—and I'd been skeptical. But now.... Well. Have you heard of this novel before?

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003) Snoopy's Guide to the Writing Life , finished January 16

After twenty years on my Amazon wish list, I decided to use a gift card I'd been given to finally buy Snoopy's Guide to the Writing Life, used. Christmas happened between my purchase and the books arrival and, for Christmas, my mother gave me a copy of Snoopy's Guide to the Writing Life.

That's comedy, folks.

Anyway, it's great. Lots of Snoopy-typing comics and some other literature-adjacent strips, intersperced with short essays by writers responding to one of the strips by giving Snoopy helpful pointers. They collected a mix of writers to respond to Snoopy's various interests (a selfhelp writer, Julia Child) and I suspect they were all pretty famous when the book was released in 2002, but most of writers just . . . aren't as famous as they were then. For every Elmore Leonard and Ray Bradbury there's three guys who names I don't recognize. (And for every Sue Grafton, there's just a bunch of guys. Including a couple I thought were men but it ends up they're just so old that by the time I gained consciousness their names had become girls' names.)

The book is good and I'm very glad to have a home copy and a classroom copy, but we could really stand for a 2026 version. You can keep Ray Bradbury, sure, but bring in some people who are less Schulz's contemporaries (or nearly so) and bring in, I don't know, George Saunders and Anne Patchett (just have folks at the museum factcheck them first).

Who are the biggest Peanuts fans among America's literari, after all? There's certainly no shortage of options.

somehow three weeks apparently

004) You Are Too Much, Charlie Brown by Charles M. Schulz, finished January 19

A solid little paperback collection from the late '50s.

Snoopy is pretending to be vultures but hasn't started wearing clothes yet, if you measure time by such things.

saturday/monday 

005) Ice by Anna Kavan, finished January 24

Because I may say things like this book is really weird and I'm surprised I made it through the first half, let me start by saying I really liked it. I thought it was powerful and moving in part because it was so strange and confusing.

But let me start by talking about the copy on the back of my Penguin edition.

Before we start, let me recognize that this text was intended to sell the book. And this probably sells the book pretty well. (It got me to read it!) But I don't think it's, you know, precisely correct. 

In a frozen, apocalyptic landscape,

As I'm doing this, I might as well get petty. There are a lot of different landscapes in this novel. Many of them are frozen and apocalytpic. But this phrasing makes it sound to me like the book takes place in one location. But it takes place all over the globe.

destruction abounds: great walls of ice overrun the world 

No complaint here, but this barely hints at what's happening. These great walls of ice aren't mere glaciers working their way southward and northward—they move faster than you can drive, instantly destroying everything in their path. 

and secretive governments vie for control.

This was a big part of why I read the book. I'm always on the hunt for good dystopian novels for my class, but while these oppressive-regime elements are a big part of the novel, they are more a consequence of a world in process of being destroying. They're not failed utopias; they're human response to apocalypse.

Against this surreal 

Completely agree that the novel is surreal. When nuclear weapons got mentioned over a hundred pages in, I was stunned. I had forgotten the book was published in 1967 and I had landed on an assumption that this was written in the Twenties or something. Because it is surreal—classically surreal—and it would fit in just fine with that era.

(More or less.)

But it's so hard to know what's happening in this novel. Midparagraph, our narrator may confuse another character for himself and something that just happened has not happened will never happen may yet happen what is time what is space nothing matters. Et cetera.

yet eerily familiar broken world,

What does that even mean? 

an unnamed narrator embarks on a hallucinatory quest

I assume this is just a way of repeating surreal without repeating surreal?

for a strange and elusive "glass girl" with silver hair.

She is the most interesting character in the novel. She is a child; she is a woman; she is a victim; she is a goddess of destruction surfing the sheets of ice as they devour Earth.

He crosses icy seas an frozen plains, searching ruined towns and ransacked rooms, 

Kavan (incidentally, she renamed herself after a character from two of her early novels) is a pro at describing frozen, ruined, and ransacked things. Everything is professionally awful.

depearate to free her from the grips of a tyrant known only as the warden

This is the third major character of the novel, the one the narrator occasionally confuses himself with. When we first meet him, he is the leader of a small oppressed nation. But then he runs away, girl in tow, just in front of the ice, leaving his people to be destroyed. He is cruel to the girl, but he does save her.

and save her before the ice closes all around.

He saves her from the ice over and over and over. But so, recall, does the villain. 

A novel unlike any other,

I mean, yes, but sheesh. Puffery much?

Ice is at once a dystopian adventure shattering the conventions of science fiction,

I don't know about you, but "dystopian adventure" suggests something more...dystopian and adventurous? I'm not saying this is an inaccurate description. I've already covered the dystopic elements, but it is an adventure in that he's rushing around the world killing people to save the girl, but this is no cheery Sean Connery Bond. And there can be no happy ending because the world's about to end.

Similarly, all "the conventions of science fiction" means is "we want people who are too good for space opera to feel sneakily highbrow holding this."

a prescient warning of climage change and totalitariansim, 

Is it? Yes, the ice is caused by scientists and politician, but there's nothing terribly precise about this "warning" that can serve as a warning. Same thing with its totalitarianism. It's bad. But you knew that. 

a feminist exploration of violence and trauma,

This is the one I'm most skeptical of. Let me ask whether, if this "feminist exploration" had been written by a man, would it still be feminist? I propose not. I propose, were this book written by a man, it likely would be read as deeply misogynistic. And if that's the case, what do we mean by feminist?

The "glass girl" is raped and kidnapped and beaten and abused. She is murdered more than once. She's thrown to a sea monster once! Her body is weak and fragile and gets more transparent and bruised as our male characters are unkind to her. The moments she show spunk or independence, they act quickly to destroy her.

It takes a while to realize that our narrator is also terrible. The novel starts with him looking for her hoping to rescue her and then she's destroyed by a wall of ice and then she's married to another man who is so kind to her and then the narrator realizes how easy she'd be to murder then her husband is no longer a cool dude and so we, as readers, attempting to hold together a sense of the romantic ideal, hope for our narrator to rescue her. But he doesn't. And then she's locked up by the warden as his little sex toy while our narrator has evolved into some infinitely wealthy (his billfold will never run dry) and brilliant adventurer constantly trying to navigate a Kafka'sTheTrialesque world to save her from the warden but then warden shoots her in the head but don't worry—immediately afterwards he runs away with her, saving them both from the ice.

But don't worry. Our narrator has all the traits of a hero (can escape anything, defeat anyone, never stops in his pursuit of his female counterpart) but he's no better than the warden. When the girl is snarky he beats her.

So I see a simplistic feminist argument to be made (men suck!) but it's no harder to make the misogyny argument (she gots it coming!). So calling it feminist at all strikes me as reductive and insulting. Whatever's going on in this book, it's not simply "feminist exploration." I don't think she would have liked that being on the back of her book.

a speculative literary dreamscape,

More tried-and-true cliches to let you know what kind of book this is, but I'm onboard with this one. 

and a brilliant allegory for its author's struggles with addition—

Booo. I mean, this is not an allegory. Your own copy says it's much much more than one thing. And while addiction may be a useful lens to read the novel through, it's hardly only that. It doesn't make my top three. Keep your dirty allegorizing off my fiction!

all crystallized in prose glittering as the piling snow.

That's fun. I'll allow it. 

I have a couple other things I'd like to say, mostly about the end, so maybe I shouldn't. But all the ideas of this book come to a head as everything is as awful as it's been and then she calls him a bully and his self-image is shook. He discovers the possiblity of kindness and becomes a new man. And they drive off into the snow, ahead of their final doom. It tastes like a happy ending. It's just frosting over all the bitterness we already have in our mouth and we're skeptical he can change and we know they will die soon along with the remaining remnants of Planet Earth, but...it looks like a happy ending.

But there there is this, as the novel's final sentence, tacked onto that phantom of happiness:

"The weight of the gun in my pocket was reassuring."

You tell me how happy we can be. 

three weeks 

 

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2026-01-16

You're so vain you probably think this post is about you

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BUT FIRST, what’s the deal with Substack comments? I have comments turned on, but you can’t leave comments. Here I thought you were all just quiet people when, in fact, I wasn’t letting you tell me what movies you want to watch. Which is quite the bummer.

Fiddling around with that movie post, I got it so you can leave comments now (please do!) but I couldn’t get them turned on on another post where I wanted to leave a post (which is how I realized this is STILL happening even though I’ve fixed it over and over; why is this not happening on other Substacks?).

Anyway, the thing I wanted to say about that other post is that I was wrong. It wasn’t Helmut Newton who said that thing about payphones. It was a guy named Timothy Greenfield-Sanders. And this is the photograph:

(If you click on the photo, you can see the issue of American Photo it came from. I was right that it was no later than 1998 but my assumption that it was exactly 1998 was off by five years. You can see Helmut Newton’s photo there (his wife eating breakfast with her breasts out) and, um, a bunch more of “the world’s finest photographers...selecting the images they made that, they feel, provide the best answer” to the question “What is erotic?”

In case you’re wondering, they did not all choose telephones.

I found this issue quite by accident. I selected songs from our collection that had the word city in the title, one of which was Vertical Horizon’s “Life in the City” (which I didn’t know we owned and which sounds way different from how I think Vertical Horizon sounds). Anyway, curious if Vertical Horizon was still around in 2026, I looked them up on Wikipedia then I got curious if their albums all looked similar (kinda) which led to me learning the name of the photographer of their most famous album cover which led me to her Wikipedia page where I learned she made all those famous Betty Page photos once of which is what you’ll see first if you click on that sexy photo above. You’ll have to scroll down from there for the Newton or the phone-photo page. Anyway, how wild to see that photo for the first time in almost thirty years—accidentally!—just a week after I spent almost an hour looking for it.

But back to the comments, I’m going to try something different WHILE POSTING this lil essay thing and see if that doesn’t get the comments a-working. Please go to Thubstack and say Polo if it works. Thanks.

Marco!

Anyway, on to the post promised by the title...:

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I was recently “doxxed” by an old acquaintance in the comments to an old blogpost. Scarequotes because anyone who reads this blog and doesn’t know my legal name and place of employment probably doesn’t care. I’m hardly hidden. As an exercise, I encourage you to uncover my middle initial right now and put your time in the comments. My guess is no one will take longer than ten minutes and most people will clock in around two. (This guess is partially based on the assumption that my readers are old enough [ie, not Gens Z or α] to know how to find things on the internet.)

Anyway, the doxxer in question is a narcissist and probable sociopath. Deeply charming upon first meeting, I grant you, but he was forced to leave our shared environment because, after three years, literally everyone refused to associate with him. He called that a victory and went on to greater things.

I don’t know what he’s up to now (I have chosen to do no research) but I always assumed he would soon be wealthy, boldly living life at the edge of white-collar crime. But, if he’s reading old posts of mine and identifying himself in anecdotes, maybe things aren’t going so well? Or perhaps this is normal behavior for narcissists / probable sociopaths. I mean, I wasn’t that surprised he popped up. Perhaps, when bored at home, such people look for old enemies to rage against.

But it’s hilarious (-ly narcissistic) to consider me an enemy. You might need to be a sociopath to interpret our past that way.

Anyway. Carly Simon.


 

Whenever I heard this song as a kid I would get apoplectic and demand of my mother well isn’t it? ISN’T this song about him???

I mean…isn’t it?


2026-01-15

What'll be good in 2026?

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What’s your most anticipated movie of 2026?

I'm not sure what mine is, but I can tell you that this is most-anticipated-to-watch-with-my-wife and this is most-anticipated-to-watch-with-my-9yrold and this is most-anticipated-science-fiction and this is most-anticipated-superhero and this is my most-anticipated-sequel and this is my most-anticipated-period-piece and this is my most-anticipated-movie-sorta-based-on-a-book-I-often-teach and this is my most-anticipated-bicentenniel-tie-in and this is my most-anticipated-auteur-entry and this is my most anticipated horror and this is my most-anticipated-short-film and this is my most-anticipated-IP-resurrection, but, the truth is, I haven't really looked to see what's coming out yet, so I may be missing the most exciting possibilities.

But mine’s probably this one—




2026-01-06

Is this my favorite genre of music?

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I had a revelation last fall.

In the spring I’d listened to a handful of YouTuber’s talk about why Jim Croce’s “Operator” has some of the best lyrics in rock/pop history, analyzing the one-sided conversation and the narrator opens his heart to the operator he’s asking to place a call.

(There are tons of them and I watched at least three, but this is the only one I could find in my history.)

Then, over the course of about a day, I heard two of the other four songs below. And I realized

holy crap

maybe I just really really love songs that are half of a telephone conversation?

Because I love all these songs and they are all one half of a telephone conversation.

Let’s discuss them all briefly, shall we? By order of original release.

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Jim Croce: “Operator (That’s Not the Way It Feels)”August 1972


Even as a kid, I had a thing for lost-love songs. A plaintive voice bemoaning the love who left without closing the door never to be seen again or bumping into someone with whom things can never be the same (still a year-end must for me) or, more realistically for wee me, a love that never happened in the first place.

Anyway, of these, Jim Croce’s “Operator” is one of the best, and its point of view—of a man talking to an unseen stranger through his longing for a lost path—allows him to work through the various stages of loss until he arrives at something like peace. It’s a resolution (if not quite a redemption).

But the key moment in the song is when the narrator says, “You can keep the dime”—rhymed with time and kind—he recognizes the kindness and catharsis he’s received from someone who owed him nothing. He’s released. He doesn’t need to make that call. He’s already made the call that mattered.

Two humans meeting and finding each other—anonymously, never to speak again—and yet having a connection, a shared meaning, within one, single, human moment. It’s wonderful.

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England Dan & John Ford Coley: “I’d Really Love to See You Tonight”May 1976


One thing writing this will do is reveal how, from a very early age, I was primed for heartbreak and lost love. Now here I am almost halfway through a century and I still haven’t had a single breakup and yet these songs still speak loudly to me. Let’s blame the human allegiance to metaphor, shall we?

Anyway, here we are. They’ve broken up. This time he gets her on the phone and…what does he say?

For a long time, I’ve assumed he’s saying, “I’m not talkin’ ‘bout the live-in,” ie, he’s not suggesting the get back together permanently, that he move his stuff in. Online lyrics sites are split between “I’m not talkin’ ‘bout movin’ in” (which he’s definitely not saying) and “I’m not talkin’ ‘bout the linen.” The latter one sounds the most right of the three and it could be a fun play on words with the next line (“And I don’t want to change your life”), so I think I’m going with it.

Regardless, he misses her. And while he says he’s only calling because “there’s a warm wind blowing and the stars are out” you and I both know that what he really wants is a chance to believe she might still love him ever so slightly—and that that flame might rise again if only, you know, she’d “take a drive along the beach / Or stay at home and watch TV / You see, it really doesn't matter much to me.”

I know, buddy. I know.

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Lionel Richie: “Hello”February 1982


Brace yourselves:

This song isn’t actually taking place over the phone.

It’s taking place entirely within the narrator’s mind. This is unrequited love. (In the official video, he’s a drama professor in love with a blind student. I’m assuming professional ethics are what keep him from approaching her directly?)

But in my mind, it does take place over the phone. Perhaps he’s leaving a message on her phone. (Answering machines were almost a hundred years old but didn’t really catch on for another two years…so maybe?)

More likely, he’s holding the phone in his hand. His other hand is maybe holding down the receiver or possibly he’s listening to the dial tone and the song ends when it gifts up and starts blaring at him and he’s forced to admit to himself that he’s not dialing that number.

Not today, anyway.

So yes, he’s on the phone, but no one is on the line.

It’s very sad.

And I am revealing a lot about young Theric today, aren’t I?

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Stevie Wonder: “I Just Called to Say I Love You“August 1984


If you ever pick up a copy of Rolling Stone you’ll know that Stevie Wonder is a) one of the least sentimental most hardcore musicians who has ever lived and b) this song is the most saccharine piece of bubblegum ever inflicted on the American public.

Okay, Rolling Stone.

Anyway, he’s some kind of songsmith. This is an easy song to pull out of the ol’ internal jukebox and it works for almost every day. It the “Very Merry Unbirthday“ of holiday songs!

It’s also the first (and last) song on this list that’s genuinely happy. This narrator’s in a good place, lovewise. Here’s the opening:

No New Year's Day to celebrate
No chocolate-covered candy hearts to give away
No first of spring, no song to sing
In fact, here's just another ordinary day

But how wonderful when your ordinary is utterly infused with a lifetime love.

I just called to say I love you.

If you have such a you, make such a call.

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And now for a couple honorable mentions.

Nicole Atkins: “The Worst Hangover” — (never released as a single but 2014)


This is perhaps my favorite song (it’s competitive) off one of my favorite albums from the last fifteen years. Which means it’s not filled with childhood nostalgia and angst like the above four, but the real reason it’s only an honorable mention is because I’m not sure the verses are delivered on the phone. The chorus most certainly is. And the “I’m dy-y-y-ing” fadeout at the end is one of my most quoted bits of songery. I sing it, like, literally all the time. And no one knows what I’m quoting because Nicole Atkins has not has a Stevie Wonder–like career. But even so, most critics and fans seem to have written Slow Phaser off as being unlike her other work and therefore less worthy of consideration which is BANANAS because THIS ALBUM IS GREAT.

(Caveat: one song on the album I’ve never listened to because the opening notes prove it an ultimate earworm and . . . I’m nervous having it in my head all the time.)

Nicole, if you’re reading this, I WILL COME TO THE SLOW PHASER ANNIVERSARY TOUR. Don’t miss the Bay Area. Even if it’s just me and you there it will be the best night ever. I can’t wait.

(Unquestionably, this will be the best way for me to hear “Sin Song” for the first time.)

Also, Nicole, if you’re here, is your narrator on the phone the whole time? I think not but cannot say with absolute certainty.

You guys. It’s such a good album.

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Adele: “Hello”October 2015


I’ll also mention this perfectly good song that everyone expects me to mention even though I just like it. It can’t compete with the nostalgic power of the core four and it can’t compete with Nicole Adkins because that’s one of the greatest albums of all time and although you have a beautiful voice and I might respect you, Adele, I might admire your character, but I fear that I shall not be able to give you my undivided attention. Sorry.

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In other phone news I wanted to illustrate this essay with a photo of a payphone receiver hanging off its cord. The photo I have in mind was taken by Helmut Newton and appeared in an edition of I think American Photo circa 1998 (certainly no later than that). The issue was filled with single photos by famous photographers selected by the famous photographers themselves. I’ve never forgotten this photo, mostly because of what Newton said about his photo. He said that nothing is sexier than a telephone. Except a pay telephone.

Anyway, I couldn’t find the photo, but that information should help you interpret this sexy Newton payphone photo if you feel like clicking on it. Warning: sexy Newton payphone photo.

2025-12-31

Decembry Movieing

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We started the month with Wake Up Dead Man and I'm still not over it.

But we did watch some others as well. Behold!

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THEATER
Grand Lake Theatre
Wake Up Dead Man (2025)

Excellent movie. One of the smartest direct discussions of faith and truth in a religious context I've seen. The closest comparison I feel I can make is Silence, which is high praise indeed

That and it's a top-notch Rian Johnson–penned-and-helmed mystery as well. The pieces slot together just so and it's very satisfying. And the plot and themes meld together into one great whole.

The first two movies in the Blanc sequence were structured almost identically. Not a knock, but it's appropriate I think that this one played many of the same games but with a new organization and new misdirects and a new reliance on the non-Blanc lead. Father Jud is a terrific creation and one of the best fictional pastors of any stripe I can think of.

Anyway. I loved it. Just wish it would be in theaters longer. I fear that, as with Glass Onion, it'll be gone before I get a second chance and then never exist outside Netflix and piracy.

Ugh. Netflix is the worst.

(One complaint: the mystery of Blanc's new hairdo is NEVER ADDRESSED.)


ELSEWHERE
Public Domain Movies
The Magic Cloak of Oz (1914)

This started life as a five-reeler then was cut down to two two-reelers then put back together into whatever mess this is. And it is a mess. The editing is bad, the use of intertitles is bad, the beginning is a drag, it's redundant and pretty boring. It does pick up when the amazingly comstumed animals take over the movie (and then the Rolly Rogues are fun to watch even though the film doesn't do much with them) and if I were you I'd pick up around the twenty-minute mark then quit when I got bored.



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Frankenthumb (2002)

I watched most (all?) of Steve Oedekerk's thumb films when they were pretty new; my fatherinlaw bought them all (or only most of them?) on dvd. I don't have clear memories other than we had fun watching them. I remember Kung Pow! much better. Since showing it to my sons, they all went through a stage where it was their go-to film to show their friends. They've all now seen it vastly more times than I have.

Anyway, I can't remember if I'd even seen any of the Karloff Frankenstein movies when I first say Frankenthumb, so watching it this time I'm particularly impressed by the little sets and the references to the film. I'm definitely enjoying more layers of it this time.

Anyways, it's dumb fun. Even at its short run length it might be a couple minutes too long, but who would complain? Just enjoy it, then leave it alone for twenty years.


ELSEWHERE
our dvd
Pride & Prejudice (2005) × 2

Some movies never stop giving. I watched this twice over the last two days (volume one, volume one, the rest, the rest) and time one was a four kleenex affair, two two a one. But I also noticed or renoticed beautiful moments I've never written about before (eg, the light passing through Elizabeth's eyelids or the carriage carrying her and her aunt and uncle back to Longbourne). I've also seen it enough times to be aware of things that make emotional sense but not sense in the physical world (the camera panning from window to window after Jane's engagement would be impossible on real architecture.

Anyway, for all the reasonable complaints about it, I think it's an excellent adaptation. And some of its changes are in the direction of kindness. For instance, Mr and Mrs Bennet both as individulas and as a couple are treated much more kindly. Mrs Bennet is still ridiculous but she is allowed slightly more roundness and lovely/honest moments with some of her daughters. And their marriage isn't as empty as in the novel. That's nice.

While of course Mr and Mrs Bennet should have begun "to widen and droop," I do feel that were I making an adaptation I would go younger. By my math, Mrs Bennet is certainly in her forties and Mr Bennet may be as well. And although Donald Sutherland is my favorite Mr Bennet and Brenda Blethyn is excellent, I would love to see how a younger dynamic would play out.

Anyway. Adaptation needs to take a stand and this movie does just that. As you can't cram the entirety of such a story into a movie's runtime, some compression and exchange is necessary. I think these choices are entirely defensible.

And the cinematography and score are gorgeous, the acting and settings are terrific, and Elizabeth looks like my wife. I can forgive some impossible bare feet and inappropriate hair styles when you know exactly what to do with screen direction and hands.


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Two People Exchanging Saliva (2024)

Even though it's less deadly serious and even though its pictures move, what this reminds me of most of all is La Jetée. I don't think just because it's French and narrated and black&white and dystopian, although of course those come into play. I think part of it is the sense of inevitability, but that can't be it. Even from the beginning, that's the reference I had. If someone can explain to me why I was seeing La Jetée from the opening seconds, I will thank them.

Anyway, in this world kissing is a capital offense; to stay safe people have awful oral hygiene and eat bad-smelling foods. The monetary system is based on slaps so the wealthy have awful bruises and the nonwealthy wear makeup to fake their bruises.

This is a may/december unconsummated love story but it's beautiful and captures the sense of denial the characters are suffering through—some more consciously than others.


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Arthur Christmas (2011)

Lady Steed and I came home and the movie was at least half over so I didn't intend to watch it.

But you know what?

It's really good.

(Noting my prior opinion, maybe this is the best way to watch it? I don't think so. I think I would've liked it all the way through. Hopefully there's a next time to check this theory.)


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our dvd
Elf (2003)

I realized this is the only movie that we have watched enough as a family to be a movie we watch as a family.

It's also on this top-100 comedies list I've been thinking about writing about.

It's nice to know, at least, we're not alone in our admiration.

What a lucky break that I won the dvd in a white-elephant event back in 2004!

Incidentally, someone was playing the dvd menu song in class a couple weeks ago and people knew it. I can't think of better evidence of classicdom.


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our dvd
Gremlins (1984)

I forgot how funny this movie is.

It's, like, really funny.









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YouTube
A Christmas Carol Goes Wrong (2017)

I wouldn't call it topnotch Goes Wrong but the chaos of the final minutes might qualify.









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library dvd
The Lost World: Jurassic Park (1997)

Such an interesting case study, comparing the great original to this pretty dumb entertainment.

I first saw this movie shortly after returning from my mission. I remembered very little about it—just the lines in the grass as the raptors hunted and a couple San Diego details. I didn't think it was that great, but who knows—it's been almost thirty years!

But yeah. It doesn't hold up. It's just a heightened version of the first, but it doesn't understand itself. A couple examples. Pete Postlethwaite is one of my favorite actors (Brassed Off! Romeo + Juliet!) but he's just been told to be a morally compromised version of the Aussie hero from Jurassic Park. The boat that comes into San Diego harbor is a clear reference to Dracula but the hows and what's of the onboard slaughter make no sense. It's just a bad slasher movie where people do dumb things so crazy stuff can happen.

But you do get a lot of action sequences etc etc etc so it's fun. You're just left with no reason to ever watch again.


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A Minecraft Movie (2025)

A solid Jared Hess movie and an excellent IP-forward movie.

It was good to rewatch it and experience its strengths and weaknesses from a position of experience. But in the end there's not question that it's a movie with the strength of its convictions. I still can't believe it got made. I have high hopes for the sequel.

What kind of world is it where a Hess has the highest grossing movie of the year?

One I have hope for. That's what kind.


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The Muppet Christmas Carol (1992)

I'm a bit ashamed it took me so long to come around on this film. It's terrific. Gonzo and Rizzo are great. Michael Caine is excellent on every level. And little moments really matter. Like when Beaker gives Scrooge his scarf. What an astonishing moment. Yes, Caine nails his part—but so does Beaker. Whoever thought to make Beaker key to an emotional moment? Astonishing.





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Superman (2025)

I really thought this summer would be the first time I saw a Superman movie in theaters. I did. But travel and more urgent (smaller, likely to disappear movies) prevented it from happening.

For the record, I admire Superman as a character and have read a goodly number of the comics, but I've only seen the first two (maybe three) of the Reeve film and the only time I saw the recent era was watching Justice League and Shazam (he does show up in the cafeteria) but—he wasn't in Flash, right? I can't remember.

The thing is, none of those are very good Superman movies. I do have some fondness for 1978 and Christopher Reeve is still probably the best Superman but, in my lil ole opinion, this is the first good Superman movie. I thought it was great. And it managed the rare superhero feat of having the save the world while having the stake remain, ultimately, personal.

I liked the side characters as well, but that's just where James Gunn's wheelhouse is. He's great at side characters. Guy Gardner is just as awful as he should be and Eve is a terrific scenestealer whose overthetopness helps make less developed characters like Jimmy Olsen more rounded.

Anyway, good stuff.

And I'm excited for the new Supergirl movie because I love the source material. It's superhero True Grit, yall. SUPERHERO TRUE GRIT.

Maybe I'll actually see it in theaters.


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Red One (2024)

I am startled by how good this is. JK Simmons and Dwayne Johnson's opening repartee is when I knew, but the whole movie basically delivered on that promise. Sure, the chicken and the ogre's cg aren't top notch (but lots of stuff is practical, which I never would have guessed!) and the final action sequence is a bit muddied and has a couple physical cheats, but besides that it's about the perfect Christmas action movie. Look, I love Die Hard but it's not for preteens. This can be.

Anyway, it's delightful. I can easily imagine returning to this every year or so.

No wonder it's back on top of the Amazon rankings a year later. People liked it!


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After the Thin Man (1936)

What a miserable viewing experience this was! Perhaps my favorite movie from one of my favorite franchises and at least fifteen years since I've seen any of them and apparently our disc has rotten making it impossible to watch past the halfway point so we have to finish watching it chopped up and sans murder. Awful way to introduce the Thin Man movies to our kids. Abysmal.

But it didn't stop me from loving Nick and Nora and watching (SPOILER ALERT) Jimmy Stewart be a bad guy.


And that's it! If we throw on a movie by 11:30pm December 31st we're calling that a 2026 movie!

So this is it (doo wop)

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It's 12:08 pm on New Year's Eve and I don't see any books lying around that I'm likely to finish by midnight so I'm calling it at 117 books in 2025. So a pretty average year, I think:

2007—90
2008—124
2009—108
2010—62
2011—94
2012—82
2013—129
2014—103
2015—126
2016—66
2017—144
2018—116
2019—100
2020—115
2021—131
2022—145
2023—136
2024—129
2025—117

Anyway, who cares. That probably better predicts how many comics I read than how intellectually stalwartly I lived.

Next year will be the twentieth (!) year I've engaged in this process. Which is not an easy number to understand. I guess the next big one after that will be when I've been doing it half my life.

But I try not to think about this too much because what I wouldn't do to have lists of the books I read before I began all this. What did I read that I don't remember when I was eight or ten or fourteen or twenty-seven?

Well, it's fine. Someday we'll all shuffle off to that great night bookmobile in the sky and that will be that.

One my favorite writer died in the past week, one who's only appeared once in one of these lists but who I've written and spoken about plenty over the years (example). We just watched his funeral and parasocial relationships may be strange but they can be healthy.

Next up: another year. It should look a little different. I'm curious what number it will end at.

112) Giant Days: Volume Two by John Allison with Lissa Treiman and Max Sarin, finished December 3

If this had been volume one instead of volume one, I would not have read volume two. It's fun enough but it's really just sitcom logic at this point. Characters gain skills as needed so an issue's plot can be executed and then those traits are lost, ne'er to be recovered.

I already checked out volume three so I may well read it, but . . . I have a lot of other stuff checked out too. So we'll see. 

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113) Taproot by Keezy Young, finished December 19

This book seemed like it was going to be one of the queer-friendly nonstories that's flooding the market at the moment, but I'm happy to say it did have a story and, above that, it wasn't normal boring pre-formed plot, either. The love story was on a different set of rails from the horror element which, as it ends up, wasn't actually horror anyway. The story set me up to expect some of the same tired crap I feel like is everywhere (the comics I have not finished, yall) but it's playing a much higher level of game and I respect it.

(Incidentally, checked this book out of the library because it didn't have Keezy's latest book which was promoted on a best-of-2025 list.)


Anyway, the story's about a fellow who can see ghosts (one of whom is in love with him) and the unexpected problems that infect reality when you can, in fact, see ghosts. 

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114) The Last Flower by James Thurber, finished December 20

I own so much Thurber. But this may be the simplest way to understand his beauty and melancholy.

Of course, most people are just looking for the jokes.... 

one go 

115) Bowling with Corpses & Other Strange Tales from Lands Unknown by Mike Mignola


 
This might be my favorite Mike Mignola book. I'd have to look through old reviews to check, but I love this new world he's created and the anthology of stories that fit into it. I love his loose and ragged art—a sort of studied sloppiness that only someone who has mastered his craft can pull off. At the back of this volume is an alternate version of one of the stories that is just in his black and white without Dave Stewart's colors and it's a marvel to behold. The man uses so much ink.

One useful way to consider Mignola is how he deals with the beautiful and the monstrous. For instance, his nudes—there are naked women in this books; some are likely beautiful some maybe not, but it is their interiority and their abstract existence of shadows an life that define them—not the curve of a breast. And on the opposite scale, sight horrifying and unpleasant too are defined by their context and their abstracted qualities.

I hope many more of these volumes appear. 

If for no other reason than for more commentary from ducks and cows.

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116) Initial D Ominbus 1 by Shuichi Shigeno, finished December 25

I first heard of this on the Comic-Con floor where I picked up a promotional image because the kid looked like me in the Nineties and his car looked a lot like my first car, an '87 Accord.

 

Anyway, I didn't see it out, but I've been curious about it ever since and so when I saw this 500pp opening at the school library, I grabbed it to read over the holidays. Manga speeds by, after all, even something this thick.

It's about what I expected in that its mostly adolescent and post-adolescent boys racing cars. I like the blase hero who became a master at the drift in a way that keeps him from appreciating his awesomeness. It ends just before his second big race and it was all pretty exciting stuff.

My main complaint is the way the female characters are treated in the book. It feels rather like Shuichi Shigeno included them only because it's a rule and not because he wanted to. There's only one female character of note and this very boy-friendly book has one panel that for any redblooded heterosexual 14yrold will not only, necessarily, be a pornographic event, but will likely remain so for months, years afterward. It's very hot. I wanted to include that panel here so you to can be shocked at to its inclusion in what is other words a very kid-friendly book, but in the end decided it might do the same to my blog that it did to the blog.

But that's not the worst thing. This pretty high-school character is largely written "fine" EXCEPT (and it's a big EXCEPT) that in an underexplored subplot she's the victim of an Epstein-like character. She seems blissfully unaware that there's anything untoward about accepting large amounts of money from a rich old "dad" for getting naked in hotel rooms. I suppose in another thousand pages or so her honor will be defended by the series' hero (unless the series forgets her existence by then which, honestly, seems more likely), but for now the whole thing is a bizarre extra piece left in the box.

Looking for the right image to include (I didn't find it) I learned that this manga began back in the mid-90s and has become an anime and, twenty years ago, a live-action movie. So with luck we can chalk the disrespect given femanity to a former time, but man. It's wild that this was apparently the only way they could think to add a feminine aspect to a boy book. Woof. 

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117) Giant Days Volume Three by John Allison and Max Sarin (et al), finished December 27

Happy to say I liked this one much more than volume two. The writing has picked back up and the expressiveness of the art is delightful. I've come to like these three girls quite a lot and wish them well. Which is exactly why I've carved out a possible exception for them in my no-library-books-in-2026 rule

perhaps a week 

 

 

 


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2025-12-28

Hope, Jesus, and the New Year
(a svithe)

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When you're the only person in town on the last Sunday of the year, you get to speak in church. 

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The Old Testament is often reduced to its most exciting stories. It’s a big book and we don’t have much time so let’s create the world, part the Red Sea, kill a giant with a rock, and get on with our lives.

And I do love the flashy stories. When the Jews are abducted into Babylon you get Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego standing with someone like a son of God in flames so hot the men who’d thrown them in were killed. Their buddy Daniel, later in life, gets thrown to lions. His friend the king is relieved and grateful to Israel’s God that Daniel survives the night—and then killed those who got him thrown to the lions in the first place.

That exile was only seventy years long but it looms large in Jewish memory. When Matthew gives the genealogy of Jesus he notes that “there were fourteen generations...from Abraham to David, fourteen from David to the exile to Babylon, and fourteen from the exile to” baby Jesus.

By the end of the Jewish exile, Persia had taken over Babylon, but the reputation of good people like Shadrach, Meshach, Abednego, and Daniel seems to have carried over to the new empire. A Jew named Nehemiah was one of the new king’s closest associates, his cupbearer. Cupbearers were deeply trusted by and intimate to the king they served. In a time of daily violence, a king’s life was only as safe as those closest to him. Nehemiah kept the king’s food safe, would even eat it first, as needed, willing to lay down his own life to preserve the king’s.

Nehemiah and his contemporary Ezra will only get one week of our attention next year in Come, Follow Me, but I was reading a nice little thing on this Protestant site about how Nehemiah is a type for Jesus; and their first point was about his cupbearing:

The book starts with Nehemiah as the cupbearer to the King. Such a position allowed him to sit at the right hand of the King, as he had to drink the King’s cup to test it for poison. He therefore had to be willing to die for the King if necessary. Like Nehemiah, Jesus dwelt at the right hand of the Father, and was willing to drink the cup the Father had for him, even though it meant his death.

But that’s just the beginning. Nehemiah, like Jesus, weeps over the condition of his people. Nehemiah, like Jesus, leaves the king and travels to Jerusalem to help his people reestablish their city and their temple and their faith. Nehemiah, like Jesus, then returns home to his king; during his absence from Jerusalem things fall apart and he has to return to reestablish the right way of doing things.

Studying Nehemiah’s life can teach us a lot about what it means to take on the name of Christ and to live the way he would have us live.

But Nehemiah’s story doesn’t have any fiery furnaces or lions’ dens. He never parts a sea or kills a giant with a rock. The books of Nehemiah and Ezra are more about dealing with rival politicians and building permits and scheduling conflicts. Neither of them is a prophet. They do know prophets but the prophets are always giving them poetic advice that doesn’t really solve the problem of where to source enough rock for both the temple and the city walls. Their city is post-destruction. It’s peopled with the poor and the desperate. They need to serve the least of them at the same time they’re accepting shipments from a king returning Israel’s stolen temple artifacts. Their days were confusing and unclear. They did their best, but couldn’t always be sure their best was best.

Sound familiar?

Today’s sacrament-meeting topic is Hope, Jesus, and the New Year and I think Nehemiah—his name means God Comforts—offers a good example for us to consider.

After all, when the Jews returned to Jerusalem, they recommitted themselves with an oath to obey what they knew from their scriptures, from the Torah. And the Torah, as I just read from a couple rabbis, “is the method of achieving hope…it embodies the principles and pathways that sustain hope.” And, once obtained, Jews don’t “lose hope because, even when waiting for goodness to emerge, a Jew refuses to give up working to create goodness—which in turn sustains hope.”

Hope, Jesus, and a New Year.

This year is ending. A new year is being born.

Every new day follows the death of the day previous.

The world is always being unmade: empires fall, cities crumble, babies become children become parents—and the world is always being created: empires rise, cities are built, babies become children become parents.

Sometimes is it easier for us to see what we are losing. Other times we more clearly perceive what is arriving.

But Jesus wept with Mary and Martha because the things we are losing matter. They matter a lot. Those relationships and events and beliefs and dreams were created to matter. And they matter still. And now they are gone.

The longer we live, the more things we lose.

Mikhail Bulgakov wrote, “Everything passes away…but the stars will still remain when the shadows of our presence and our deeds have vanished from the earth. There is no one who does not know that. Why, then, will we not turn our eyes toward the stars? Why?”

Perhaps it’s appropriate that we celebrate New Year’s at the darkest time of the year, when the stars shine their eternal shine most clearly, so we can witness the oldest creations remind us that creation is ongoing, that creation never ends.

The bit of poetry I always think of when hope comes up is Emily Dickinson’s “Hope is the thing with feathers.” I don’t have the rest of it memorized, but here it is:

“Hope” is the thing with feathers –
That perches in the soul –
And sings the tune without the words –
And never stops – at all –

And sweetest – in the Gale – is heard –
And sore must be the storm –
That could abash the little Bird
That kept so many warm –

I’ve heard it in the chillest land –
And on the strangest Sea –
Yet – never – in Extremity,
It asked a crumb – of me.

Hope as a songbird. Something small and fragile with hollow bones and only ounces heavy. Yet it sings its tune and never stops – at all. It sounds sweetest in the sorest storm, the sort of storm that should batter and destroy things small and fragile. Yet in the chillest land and the strangest sea, on it sings, on it sings, on it sings.

Hope is the thing with feathers.

And it flies alongside us in the sorest storms and chillest lands and strangest seas.

I’m inspired by a former sister missionary, Judith Mahlangu of South Africa, who once told President Holland, “[We] did not come this far only to come this far.”

Here we are at the edge of a new year. If we look, we’ll see plenty of things ended—or ending—or maybe ending.

But listen for the song of hope—the thing with feathers. Let it perch in your soul. Listen to it sing the tune without the words – and never stop – at all.

Paul asked, “What is our hope…? Are not…ye in the presence of our Lord Jesus Christ…?”

Paul told us, even “in this present world; [to] Look for that blessed hope…our Saviour Jesus Christ; Who gave himself for us.”

Jesus Christ, who gave himself for us, is our hope.

When cast into the fiery furnace, Jesus Christ is our hope.

When thrown to lions, Jesus Christ is our hope.

When building a city wall from ruins, Jesus Christ is our hope.

When dealing with an obnoxious neighbor, Jesus Christ is our hope.

When puzzling over the words of prophets, Jesus Christ is our hope.

Whether on the chillest lands or the strangest seas, Jesus Christ is our hope.

As one year ends, Jesus Christ is our hope.

As another year begins in the darkest part of the year with faraway stars obscured by rain clouds, Jesus Christ is our hope.

Maybe our lives feel more Nehemiah than Daniel, but whether our troubles are municipal squabbles or ravenous beasts, Jesus Christ is our hope.

Nehemiah didn’t live the sort of life that gets epic films made of it, but he did his best—and now you can get online and read about him—Nehemiah!—as a type of Christ.

As the new year begins, whenever you need Jesus in your life, come to church—this room is filled with Nehemiahs dealing with their own rock-sourcing issues and rival governors—each one a type of Christ as they live their life in faith, having taken the name of Christ upon them.

When we were baptized and took Christ’s name, one life ended and we were buried in the water. But then we were resurrected out of the water into a new life. Endings, beginnings; old, new; death, resurrection.

But, as the Latter-day Saint philosopher Adam Miller wrote, “Resurrection doesn’t solve [the problem of things passing away].... Resurrection doesn’t freeze the world in place.... Resurrection is the promise that, in Christ, life can continue to pass, not that it will finally stop passing.”

And that’s why, in the new year, as we look to Christ, our hope can’t be based on an end of ending. That won’t happen. Instead, let’s base our hopes in Christ and his promise that he is with us, that creation continues in our lives, that on the chillest lands and the strangest seas and during the most pedestrian of hardships, we matter to him, he remembers us, and the song of hope continues in our souls.

Moroni taught us that “whoso believeth in God might with surety hope for a better world, yea, even a place at the right hand of God, which hope cometh of faith…which [faith] would make them sure and steadfast, always abounding in good works....”

That’s what we can give each other in the new year. Hope—lives lived by hope—strengthening the hope of others.

And “what is our hope…?

“Are [ye] not… in the presence of our Lord Jesus Christ…?”

Look around.

Yes. You are.

In the name of our hope, in the name of our brother and our fellow-traveler, in the name of Jesus Christ, amen.

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